Sunday, March 26, 2006
as people cry i look onesometimes i feel gd as theycry i donnoe y but i do sometimes when i see fear &pain in people's eyes i feel likei have acomplised something within maybe it is time i juz face wat i really am and become what people fear most the unknown,the shadows,the darkness tat lurksinside everyone maybe i am juz sick of makin people happyjuz sick of protecting people fromwat haunts them but now iam sick of doin tat humans ar nowoffically on ur own and for thoughsother tat still wish to protectingthem go ahead i have nth to dowithe them any more tat is for surenthe any more...................
ZnL@rif blogged at 6:23 PM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
sometimes i feel likei am in over my head thinking bout someonewho would even like meback even if we use to begood frens but now i am just a distant memory to you so far forgotten in your mind maybe it istrue i am easily forgottenby people i am always the one at home looking at pictures of people of groups i use to be in of people who now i walkpass would never remeber my name but just as someonethey once knew thats how i am how i would always be a forgottenhalf breed on earth here to protect what rejects him...........
ZnL@rif blogged at 10:21 PM
words they can both make uor break u tat is very true forme and lot of ppl as i walk on the path way to insanityi some time fell like a fool doin wat i have to do protectingthem but i noe they wouldnever noe or care but sometimesi think if my father had not made me were would tis humans be in hell well most of them would be in it anyway cos therear others hu ar fighting but wat would happen if all of those fightingdie of or were not here i think earth would not be it is now oh well ........
ZnL@rif blogged at 10:01 PM
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
today the end of somethingthat is so important to mei finally had the last perf wif T.A.S i am goin to missthem juz hope they would do better with out me cosi cant sing like junkai ordo a low bass like jho or even do vp like chris i am juz a singer a nobody juzanother supporting part in the group......truesometimes i feel like i an outsider but inside i noetat i am fren to them alleven today i decided to go hmalone cos i needed it to be alonelike i always have anywaysaying gdbye is never easybut we juz have to do it so herei am saying gd bye to u guys have a nice life to u all..........
ZnL@rif blogged at 10:58 PM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
life just is meaningless for some one like menever to feel wat a realsmile feels like any more juz feel so stupid even at tas pract i was feeling extreamlydown but again had to hide it under a mask tat hides my true self my true feelings from the world that i noe humans would just laugh ati juz donoe wat to do no morejust confused,depressed and insane ya insane tats the rite word juz plain insane i am crazy stupid and foolish i feel dead inside juz a dried up heart in a souless bodyFUCK LIFE ........................
ZnL@rif blogged at 10:15 PM
Sunday, March 05, 2006
here i stand as insanity fills me making me more and more crazy more and more paranoid bout my life sometimes i feel like i am juz slipping away from societyslipping away for humanity and sanitysome times i feel like i am just dead and i wish i am dead always int eh shadows looking at ppl but they would never notice me until i scream or shout only then i am noticible some times when i train i wander y did really god made meto defend humans but i am getting hurt by them emotionally haiz my sanity is demised in the darknessof my own heart...........................FUCK LIFE
ZnL@rif blogged at 8:50 PM
