Sunday, January 29, 2006

juz fucked up wif life and humans they juz never care and never would noe how much some care for them i dont need them to return it or anything but at lease be there when i need u cause i have already risk my life for u humans long enough don u think but sometimes i would unconciously watch my word sas i care for them abit too much to actually say tis so if u humans read tis then gd i am getting somethings of my mind and chest sometimes when i walk around tis island i juz find humans are juz blind to not see the "others " around them no wander some get murdured accidents happen and bombings happen around the world u noe sometime i juz wat to shout at their face and tell them wat a great waste of skin they actually ar dont get me wrong but it is true those so called gangsters and drug addicts ya it si true i use to be on of them but pls if u wat to die juz kill ur self drg don help juz kill u slowly why not juz hang ur self or something even better sell it off too lucifer or satan somecall him it would be better then taking drugs ya it is true be part of his army only then i have to kill u i need the excersise anyway so go ahead sell it then die again in my hands it is somuch easier then killing ur self wif drugs s rite? think bout it ok .................



Sunday, January 22, 2006

i have been hearing a song by P.L.P a letter from dreamland and i kinda like it not my kind of music but it kinds of reminds me of someone i noe even though she is not mine she is always my sunshine and everytime i talk to her on the phone it would make my day but it would dim when she say gd bye and even better when i say the last time there was tis fake smile on her face but i stayed cause i missed her so much tats y haiz i am juz missing rite now missing her very much even if i would never be wif her she is always my sunshine haiz i think i would never get sick of tis song liao i have been listening to it for 6 hrs haiz missing her but she would never noe it is me missing her haiz juz FUCK LIFE ................................



Sunday, January 15, 2006

i am juz fucking fed up wif life rite now i am so fed up wif life till i do not care wu would read tis ok fuck it sometimes i feel like a fool sometimes i feel liek an idiot but most of all i feel like i am a FUCKING MORON i juz don get it i donnoe wahen to stop liking a gal even though if has someone else in her heart i would still be there like the idiot i always am would try to get her to like me or at least admire me but fuck tat would never happen me alone wlaking on the streets of singapore fucking seeing couples alll over the place an me a lonley jackass walking around u noe sometimes if i did not have tis FUCKING human heart i would juz have gone and killed the couple but luck i am not wu i use to be cold heart less maybe i should be tat guy again it is so much better then feeling tis pain anyway so much more better fucking better then tis alrite juz FUCK IT FUCKING FUCK IT ........................................................................





Wednesday, January 11, 2006

i feel like a fool tonight the day is fine but tonight i feel like a fool a gd for nth fool maybe cause i care so much for a gal but she would never noe never realise it juz me here thinking of her missing her but everytime i tok to her she would be tokin about her ex wu she really misses but me here juz hearing heart broken having mixed feelings rite now i already have love but y am i thinkin of her maybe she is juz to special to let go to for get but i don think she would noe my feelings i juz hope she does oh ya am goin to make a private blog for my relly feelings wif in my half-breed heart am i fool to care bout her?????..................................................................................even if she does not care and don worry tis blog still up liao so till other days......................

MANSION out



Tuesday, January 10, 2006

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

how can some one forget some one wu he really really loves i donnoe i am searching for an ans for tat qn i juz can forget someone wu really means so much to me but hse would never noe tat cause she loves someone else and me juz here thinkin of her so i must forget bout her but is tat even possible i dont think so i juz have to suffer to forget her like before only now she only likes me like a fren haiz i cant make some one love me even if i can but she loves someone else haiz tats how it has always been for me i would go around liking a gal but ht egal would either likes someone else or juz not ready which sometimes juz a stupid excuse for i like someone else or i am wif someone fuck it i donnoe wat to belive in no more juz wat to end it all juz wat to not feel this emotions no more i wat to be my cold self again since no one would ecknowledge it's excistents so fuck it.................



Monday, January 02, 2006

it is a new yr most ar happy some ar juz sad to say gd bye to 2005 me i am juz getting more and more morbit maybe cause i am feeling sad to leave to 2005 or juz to scared 0f 2006 i don give a dame no more maybe i am juz missing her or maybe juz missing my lover wu noes i donnoe my self i was juz reading a comic The Crow nice story i feel like i can relate to it maybe i did died twice sorry but no medical records hell to tat but i like the poems tat ar in side the comics very cool veyr nice i did post one poem once on this blog juz think a poem like tat may juz show how my life really is like haha but it is ok as it is the new yr i shall put up one for all of u ppl u read tis if there is any...........................................................


this one is titled:DESPAIR
HERE DWELLS A SNAKE, ONE THOUSAND MILES LONG
COILED,ONE THOUSAND MILES DEEP
EYES LIKE CANDY,IT HAS EYES LIEK CANDY
HARD AND BLUE,BUT SOFT AS KITTENS FEET
OUT OF SIGHT OR IN THE ELEMENT OF LIGHT
IT COULD BE A DEVIL, IT COULD BE AN ANGEL
WITH SPIDERS INSIDE A VISION FROM HELL
ITS SPINE IS A VERTICAL SCREAM
SLOW AS CONCRETE, BLURRED AS A DREAM
IT SPINS ROUND AND DOWN ON AN AXIS OF ATROCITY
FUELES BY INERTIA, DEPTH,RADIUSAND VELOCITY
ITS SOUL-A TWISTED WRECKAGE OF DESPAIR AND PAIN
AND THE SPIDERS INSIDE ARE JUST PRAYING FOR RAIN
KILLING TIME KILLING TIME
AND PRAYING FOR RAIN
ONE THOUSAND MILES DEEP

here u go haiz i like it haha juz love tis poem hope u like it
MANSION



Sunday, January 01, 2006

Darkness Don't turn away
I pray you've heard
The words I've spoken
Dare to believe
Oh for one last time
And then I'll let the
Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own
Carry me away
I need your strength
To get me through this
Dare to believe
Oh for one last time
And then I'll let the
Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own
On my own
On my own
On my own
On my own
Dare to believe
Oh for one last time
And then I'll let the
Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own
On my own

haiz juz something i remembered from a song i heard