The Dark Dark Night

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

life watz wif it i don noe i juz don noe watz happenin wif it i juz feel extremly lonley now adays but y? am i feelin this way i wat it to stop but y? wouldin it stop y? someone pls make it stop make this feeling go away..............oh well like someone would come around and juz make that happen never goin happen rite? well i have this song once your beautiful or something i am myself is not sure but ya it is a nice song trying to gat it's lyrics but i can't seem to find it well my life is juz like it or maybe alil better the song the guy could not tell the gal he liked her but i did but she turned it down haiz now she is leaving in an other six mths until i would see her again but i don think tat would br enough for me to say gd bye tis yr her b bae i was goin to pass her something i took long to sve up for but i thinkk it is worht it rite? i was thinkin i would give it ot her myself but i don think i she would be free too see me on tat day looks like i have to pass it to her frens to pass it to her i love her so much she is my angel in my life but she would never be mine she is beautiful but now i will face the truth tat i would never be wif her nevr to be wif her.......................

ZnL@rif blogged at 12:59 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

well wat to blog yesterday was fun ok it was until i got back hm then they nag and nag hell wif tat oh well i am juz bored to death rite now no idea wta to do surpose to met sze today but she last min say cannot then until now have not reply my msgs haiz oh well much was not done today so tomolo must do if u askin me wat it is hmwrk have not even done one yet i am goin to die on 27th haiz did not go to choir last week sori but i my grandpa was sick ok sori alrite but i had plans to go out wif hui already really sori and perf i was told if i did not come for pract cant perf and my mom is sick she still is ok very sori u guys

ZnL@rif blogged at 9:55 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

my life suxs my grand parents ar argueing wif each other my mom keep on crying and io have found tat i ahve rage which can go out of countrol any time any where it when off yesterday today in public again and i was walkin like a i got a very big stick in between my legs like a fucker really ah bengs in gangs all stare at me my band walkin behind me all keep on askin me to walk faster they keep on pushin me but wat the hell not they not used to this much attenion by tat many humans at orchard ok sori guys to make u guys worried i slp it all of but come home with both grandparents yelling at each other stress returns in full force oh boy i ahve wast my time outside juz to return to house full of old fighting grnadparents wat a life eh oh well got to go

z.a out of here

ZnL@rif blogged at 11:15 PM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

well my life is juz full if pain i am feeling pain rite now even typing this hurts me inside cause my heart is hurt and i think it is taking it sure a long time to heal a very long time to long in fact my heart my brain my feeling they all hurt fuck it i hate my life last yr it was a great yr but now it feels like it all is going to end wat the hell is happening to me am i going to die well i feel like it i dont noe y but i do this is to much to type bout but it is true i could never get her out of my head pls someone help my mind is going crazy very crazy my heart is bleeding to much far to much someone pls help end this suffering now pls pls pls pls pls .....................................i beg u to end tis for me pls.............

ZnL@rif blogged at 11:05 PM