Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Komakino

this is the hour when the mysteries emerge
strangeness so hard to reflect
a moment so movinggoes straight
to ur heart
condition that's never been met
the attraction that's held like a wake
deep inside
somethingi'll never forget
pattern is set,the reaction will start
complete but rejected to soon
looking ahead in the grip of each tear
impluse that linds every move shadow that stood by the side of the road
always reminds me of you
how can i find the right way
to control the conflicts inside,
all the problems beside
as the questions are rite
and the answers don't fit
into my way if paying, into my way
of paying


something i read along time ago but juz remembered



Friday, July 15, 2005

Your connection with darkness is through
self-harming. Life has hurt you so badly and it
feels like it always will. Of course, you just
want to get rid of it and has found out that
cutting releases your pain and tension. After
all, now it's you who decides to inflict pain,
not someone else. Perhaps you even feel guilty
afterwards when you've "come to your
senses". Due to this you tend to wear
long-sleeved shirts, if it's the wrists your
cutting. You fear your scars will be seen and
often keep away from people physiclly. Some
cutters just want to get caught doing it, to be
saved and for someone to care for them and
understand. While others may do it just because
there is too many problems they have to deal
with, and inflicting harm upon themselves seems
to be a good way out. This is the point where
I'm supposed to say that you should talk to
someone. The thing is though, I know as well as
you, it's hard seeking help. But it's still
highly recommended that you stop harming
yourself.


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Saturday, July 09, 2005

haiz wat a fucked up week i have been having 1st the the teachers tat is makin my life aliving hell more stress add on me oh well maybe it is my own fault of not doin my corrections rite ok then next was the accapella competion got last haiz i am really fucked up to day wated to vane tit all on bowlin but could not cause frenz no money fuck it but not there fault rite then was force back to sch to do my corrections fuck tat to but wat the hell at least i get to go online blog sometimes i feel like i wat to die but then thinkin of when wu is goin to protect them when hell rises god wat a joke if he wated to help us he would heve long time ago haiz at least i realese my stress by cuting my self in class but i don feel the pain maybe because i know pain at the molecular level ........it pulls at my atoms ..........sings to me in the alphabet of fear.......i am the boiling man...come to break the bones of ur sins.............cool huh got it from a comic but it is true i don feel pain on the out side but on the inside i feel it hurts so much pls make it stop someone pls pls i beg u to make it stop..............pls..............



Saturday, July 02, 2005

ok enough is enough i don noe y but i have been having ppl look at me like i am an areshole for the whole day i don noe wat to do no more i juz wat to be left alone juz a while would be great but some don understand the two ppl i need the most now is to busy wif thier lives i cant blame them but i learn something earlier in hell that death is death if u embrace it but is u reject it is a curse i think it when tat way ok tats enough for now z.a out of here