The Dark Dark Night

Thursday, May 05, 2005

well the earlier post was crap i juz could not write all my thoughts in sch not safe

life wat does it mean? izzit to fight and distroy our sleves izzit to protect ourselves from wat we don understand? i don noe but i ahve came to a conclusion tat life it is not destant to be but u control it u can cahnge ur destiny ur lifr anytime anywhere juz try u acna change it death is a whole u can change death or fight it u can be death or side him although i sometimes side him as i wat to die to make it all end my life is meaning less now i only fight to end tis war to end my life my blades ar ready to cut my self when it is done when it is all over i wat love i need love but wu would give it to me sertain ly not hui or sze or any one else in this sch i ahte my teachers i hate my life i hate my exsitens but y i am plce here there must be a reason must be a meaning of all this fighting all this killing all this pain tat i feel the beast is out it is roaming the world but wif my mind it is confusing it is juz wandering but i havre to sent it back to hell where it belongs sometimes i feel like tat i should join it join him to keep every one safe safe from me or anything tat follows me anywhere until tat time i will continue to do wat i can to protect even if i will cos my life my soul to be kept in hell for eternity......z.a out of here

ZnL@rif blogged at 8:30 PM