The Dark Dark Night

Sunday, April 24, 2005

some say i am dilutional but they ar wrong i am not i juz need to be my old self again y wont y get tat in ur fucking head i need to be mytrue self to end my missery i need NIGHTMARE i don belive i am saying this but yes i need to be tat beast again i need to unleash a being tat may distroy all i noe and love u humans never get it do u u guys cant get the fact tat there is abeing more powerful then u but never more powerful then allah of coures no one is more stronger or powerful then god himself i need to change to unleash true hell in hell the same hell i use to unleash on earth in my past tat same hell i unleash yrs ago i need tat power once more my mask armour and machete i would unleash this once more i will make it trough and once it is all set and done i will and i promise u i will find my way back to my human self if not at least try to stop NIGHTMARE from killing everything it is path i must control it i must control NIGHTMARE i will fin this war and change back even if i have to die i am sori but i will do anything to stop this i don care i will change sze if u read this i would like to say thank u for giving me advise all this while and changing my heart from black to pure once and hui thnk u for giving me hope in love but i was dissapointed int he end again but maybe u should noe this brcause of u my heart trun back to black my heart died again my life is useless wif out a heart and soul take care u hurt hui u cut me deep but i will always hold it together when i am around u wat happens u noe already rite ok tat should be enough hui u would always be in my heart i would always think of u and sze and yes joanne, hidir ,stanley,jeannette,audry,shir,colin,hila and sertainly not the least all my other fren tat i have made trough the yrs of my life thank you for being there for me thank u all it is time i repay u wif my life my soul and heart tis i promise u tat i will return as arif once more i promise u tat i would always remember u guys arif would return in victory at least i hope thank u all Z.A out of here

ZnL@rif blogged at 11:05 PM